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Saints and Sinners

July 29th, 2008 (07:43 pm)
pissed off

current location: home james
current mood: pissed off
current song: NONE

Okay so I came out of hiding for this because I haven't felt this enraged in quite a long time. 

First before I speak my peace, I would like to say Thank YOU so much *hug* to my girl, [info]country_bee, Bee for the lovely cupcake and Birthday wishes, you my friend are made of awsome!! and I found out what the "WANK" is all about . . 

Now on to my two cents:

I love how quickly we as humans can judge other people. 

I adore how easy it is to shed the light on someone else, yet keep ourselves hidden in the shadows. 

I admire those of us who can, without really knowing someone, say what they are thinking. That we can know the reasons behind their actions.

How we can brush off someone else's FEELINGS just because they aren't our own. Because if it happened to us, we would be forgiving and understanding and not have any other reaction. At. All.

I mean how dare someone think differently than us? The Gall, The Brazonness.  

Our Rights trump everyone else's.

We have the right to point fingers and pass judgement cause we HAVE NEVER made any mistakes, or hasty judgements, (oh the irony!), we just wouldn't do something like that. 

Because we, unlike them, are saints. 

I am reminded of a poem I first read in High School, 

When some fellow yields to temptation, 
  and breaks a conventional law, 
We look for no good in his make-up, 
  But God! how we look for a flaw!
No one will ask - "How tempted?"
  Nor allow for the battles he's fought; 
His name becomes food for the jackals;
  For us who have never ben caught.

"He has sinned!" We shout from the housetops, 
  We forgot the good he has done, 
We center on one lost battle, 
  And forget the times he has won. 
"Come, Gaze on the sinner!" we thunder, 
  "And by his example be taught, 
that his footsteps lead to distruction"
  Cry we who have never been caught.

I'm a sinner, O'Lord., and I know it, 
  I am weak, I blunder, I fail, 
I am tossed on life's stormy ocean, 
  Like ships embroiled in a gale. 
I am willing to trust in Thy Mercy;
  To keep the commandments Thou'st taught, 
But deliver me, Lord, from the judgement, 
  Of saints who have never been caught. 


                               - Author Unknown
 
I am done trying to understand people, as for me: 

Jensen, I have never spoken to you, I don't really know your favorite color, or who you admire most. However I think you are an awsome actor, and the things I do know about you make me think you are an equally awsome person.  

You have never given me any reason to think otherwise, and short of a video of you stomping kittens, nothing or no one is going to change my mind on that. 

You see because I don't jump on bandwagons, I don't let other people tell me what to think (wouldn't Jack Kerouac be proud *wink*), and I am loyal to the people and the things I care about. 

fin.
 

wake_up_older29 [userpic]

I really hope you are not lost to me

May 15th, 2008 (09:56 pm)
crushed

current location: la's house
current mood: crushed
current song: In my arms - Plumb

I am still in shock or maybe going thru the stages of grief. 

wake_up_older29 [userpic]

Do not go gentle into that good night

May 10th, 2008 (12:38 am)
cold

current location: Home
current mood: cold
current song: Will & Grace

 

wake_up_older29 [userpic]

Invictus

May 10th, 2008 (12:26 am)
cold
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current location: Home
current mood: cold
current song: The Golden Girls

wake_up_older29 [userpic]

OH. My. Gah..

February 7th, 2008 (09:35 pm)
bouncy
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current location: Barn
current mood: bouncy
current song: None Sadly

 SPOILER ALERT !!! Well nothing serious just something that made my neighbors go "uh.. what was that noise" :D





Love you guys and will be back this weekend to post cause I TOOK THE WEEKEND OFF !! *eek*

wake_up_older29 [userpic]

Who is that ?? Marci ? who.. wait . . I think I remember her .. maybe.

January 11th, 2008 (10:07 pm)
Sorry

current location: In the barn
current mood: Sorry
current song: Come Home - One Republic

If you still have me on your friends list I am SHOCKED !!! I haven't been around in so long, I wouldn't blame you if you had abandoned me. 

What can I say life has been even more shitty than I ever imagined it could be. Some things in my life have changed dramatically over the past months (as most of you know my father has had open heart surgery and is doing great ! Thanks for everyone who has asked about him and kept him in your thoughts and prayers *hug*) and I have tried to take on all of his responsibiites on top of mine, needless to say I suck at being my dad. And well I just suck period. I have tried so hard to hold it all together but it seems like everything I touch turns to shit. *insertwinehere* yeah, I know .. and sorry ! I won't bore you with anymore of the details I will only ask that you forgive me for not being around and understand that it was not in my control, because I would have much rather been here with you. And I am going to be around more, by pain or death !! *nod*

wake_up_older29 [userpic]

Fresh Blood Episode drabble and pics

November 16th, 2007 (08:12 pm)
good

current location: the chair
current mood: good
current song: TV

IT's been a while, what can I say RL is kicking my ass, but my father is doing awsome *hug* thank all of you who have been with me thru all that. 

I am doing an episode thingie cause last night's broke me in a good way. I bawled like a kid . . what can I say my emotions are all over the place

*coughlameattemptatanexcusecough*

Anywho *smirk* here is my usual craziness
Okay here are my two cents:



I have to say I loved this episode so much, like you couldn't tell. . that I am gonna watch again right now.

Peace and Chicken Grease People

wake_up_older29 [userpic]

(no subject)

November 9th, 2007 (11:47 pm)
relieved
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current location: Room 232
current mood: relieved
current song: monitor's beeping

 
This is my daddy:


(the one in the overalls ;~)



Thanks to everyone who has been there for me during this; 

To Bee, Faith, Jaye, Crystal and all the other lovely people on the Jensen board *hug* thank you so much for your thoughts and prayers. I really appreciate you guys so much. You have all been so kind to me thru this and I will never forget your kind words, or for keeping me simi sane thru all this. I know there is a much higher power at work here, because just when I was at my lowest, I got a post or a PM from someone . . *smushes* I have no words other than Thank you so much!!

Kali *squeezestight* my dear, how I do love you. After everything you are going thru, you still take the time to think about me. You will never know how much that means to me. I am so thankful to have you in my life, you know you are constantly in my thoughts and prayers. I hope that we can talk soon. *hug*     

wake_up_older29 [userpic]

Why ?

October 17th, 2007 (10:33 pm)
foul

current location: The Dark Farm
current mood: foul
current song: none

I am foul. 



Why do we live in a world where I am grateful that only something bad happened instead of something horrible? 

wake_up_older29 [userpic]

My first time.. be gentle ;)

October 2nd, 2007 (09:02 pm)
blah

current location: Boonies
current mood: blah
current song: Ballad of Denim Boy and Grey Girl - Steve Carlson

Okay so this is the first time I have ever posted anything I have written. And this is really just a drabble that wouldn't leave my warped mind until it was on paper.. so ya'll are the not so lucky ones that get to see it. 

Title: All my heroes have now become ghosts
Author: my dorky self
Characters:  Dean and Sam
Pairings:  none
Length:  around 600, give or take
Rating:  PG
Spoilers:  Only to what has aired, nothing after the end of Season Two.
Disclaimer:  If I owned them, do you think I would be playing on the internet? oh and the title was stolen from Shinedown.
**WARNING !! This is a DEATH FIC .. please don't read and then blast me, cause you were warned.** 


Yeah, I think Dean Winchester is a big Damn Hero .. but you knew this about me !! 

Special *hugs* to m'Babe, cause.. well she knows why !! 

Luv !!

Marci

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